Muxtape

I've made a Muxtape, you can listen to it here, comprised of my fave bands. Muxtape is like a playlist that you share with anyone and everyone. Its a free streaming site, all you do is sign up (free) and start uploading your songs. Its pretty easy (this site was only recently set up, so it's really simple looking at the moment). Send me a link if you make one, I'd love to hear what you've been listening to.

The Things I Spend my well earnt *cough* Money on

My copy of The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy & Other Stories by Tim Burton arrived! Super happy. All the stories/poems are so dark and quirky (as with all Tim Burton's work), I love the illustrations (havnt used that word since grade2) all drawn by Tim Burton and the layout of the book makes it such a fun read. I love this stuff.

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Kidrobot/Mad Barbarian Capee White Flocked

Toy toys TOYS!!!

But not any Toy, oh no no no my blog reading friends, not the ones you find in your everyday Kmarts or Targets, no no no!

Designer (Limited Edition) vinyl toys!

I've recently (ok maybe not recently, for a while now, remember Munny?) discovered the amazingness of this fabulous affair. There are so many (yet limited) out there, all with their own stories, Toy designers from all over the world who put their heart and soul into these amazing lil creations. I love it! I know I know, I'm getting ahead of myself, as if I can afford any of this, but I already have my heart set on one (ok I lie maybe 4, including the one pictured above) vinyl toys that I have fallen in love with and I MUST have them! I've bought one (well really it's two, but from the same collection) already and I'm waiting for them to arrive very soon now. When they do, I'm gonna show you how incredibly amazing these things are!

erm...OUCH!?

I was helping my brother mowing the lawn this afternoon. First time ever for both of us, and we were pathetic. After 30mins of trying to start the lawn mower and then restarting it and adjusting it and and AND! we gave up. Brother went "ok I give up I'll just do it this way", he goes and gets a conveniently placed long thin stick from the back porch "I'm gonna whip the grass down" he said. *eye rolling* Typical, goes and does something completely stupid! I stand there waiting to see what he's going to do, I'm by the way, standing to the right of him. He goes into a golfing position, stick back behind his head, he goes for the swing and WHACK! right behind my left leg!!! I had a huge red mark on the back of my leg, (I was gonna take a photo of it, but my legs are shockingly WHITE). It didnt hurt, thankgoodness, but the mere sound gave me one heck of a heart attack.

Music That Connects You + Deeper Stuff

I was just looking at Mike Shinoda's (LinkinPark/Fort Minor) playlist on itunes. this was what he wrote after he explained why he chose a particular song on his playlist..

"...I think that's what one of my favourite things about music is: those times when hearing a song reminds you of a time in your past, when it connects you directly with the memory every time you hear it...".

I feel exactly the same way. One song that really sticks out for me (and also the most embarrassing) is Hilary Duff's "Beat of My Heart". That was the last song playing while the plane was leaving Vietnam in 2006. That year and that trip was one of the most difficult times of my life so far. Just that one trip to Vietnam opened up a lot of...I dont know...just so much was surfacing at once, questions that I had never thought of before constantly ran over and over in my head, causing pain and confusion. My relatives were asking me questions like "Do you miss your real dad?" "do you even know what he looks like?" "I remember your dad, He was such a handsome man, also a nice man, a lot nicer than the man your mum is with now" and from then on, I thought more and more about my biological father and how my life would have been like if he stuck around and my mother never met that lying, cheating, selfish, son of a...! who is father to my lil sister. I dont even know what he looks like, but then I dont know if I do want to see him, what would I say? What would I DO? If he ever came up to me in the streets, or came to my door, What would I do? Slam the door in his face? Hug him? throw verbal abuse at him? cry? I dont know...and I dont think I am ready to face him right now or ever.

That year was also the year my mum and step dad "split up". I had never seen my mum cry before until those dark days. It was painful for me, and I dont think I helped the situation any better. I asked my mum about my biological dad and the family I never knew, It pained her that she thought she wasnt enough for me, but she was. She is enough. She has gone through a lot for me and my brother and yes also my lil sister. She's one of the strongest people I know, she's been through a lot on her own, with no help from any man or any one for that matter. I am grateful that I have a mother who is so strong and dedicated (even if she does nag me to death everyday).

2006. A very dark, confusing and insightful year. I have never felt so much pain and cried so much in my life.... But that was then, right now I'm quite content with my life.

So when I hear Hilary Duff's "Beat of My Heart" it brings back memories of tears that I shed (embarrassingly) when I had to say goodbye to my uncle and aunts who couldnt come with me when I had to leave for my step dad's place. The smile and sigh of relief when I finally didnt have to see any of my Step dad's family EVER again. but mostly the overflowing love that my relatives expressed, caring for me when I was alone, just the value of family.

An Act of Kindness is Hard to Find These Days

I ride the bus so frequently that pretty much all the bus drivers who drive that route recognise me, usually greeting me with a "oh. right. it's you." (if you couldnt tell- they're very enthusiastic when they see me). and now that I have to pay full fare they all give me this shocked/surprised look (because I dont feel pathetic enough?). But there's this one bus driver who always tries to give me the cheapest fare possible, (I dont know why, but it's more expensive stopping at my house than it is stopping at the train station (which is the next stop after mine)), unlike the other bus drivers who tell me "you should get a consession card" (If I could I would) he goes right ahead and charges me less, definately a very cool guy ^^.

Getting a lil Creeped out...

ok there is a sound coming from outside my window, I cant tell if its a cat meowing in pain or a kid whining, but its way too late in the night for either and it's creeping me out. I'm gonna go into my room and shut the door and hopefully drown out the sound. Way too freaked out to actually go outside at 12.30 in the morning to investigate(yes deep inside I'm just a scared lil girl)...

EDIT: Sorry it wasnt DIRECTLY outside my window, it was like a house down, but I could hear it through the window (where the computer is situated). Originally, I thought it was my sister being an idiot, she's always making weird loud nosies when she's bored (it will drive you insane), but I went to her room and found her sleeping, so that got me freaking out a lil. and then as soon as I went to bed (super tired by the way) my neighbour's dog started barking, wth?!

Job Hunting

Went out today to see if Bakers Delight had any vacancies. No such luck, well actually they told me to bring in my resume (which I havnt actually written up yet...) and hand it to the boss. So I guess I'll be going back tomorrow. Jenn came with me for moral support, we ate KFC, had Wendy's super shakes and went grocery shopping together, was tonnes of fun.

*** "Our" groceries***

***Hey! it's the girl who stole my Dove chocolates :P***

Easy Come Bye-Bye Money

My brother gave me 10 bucks yesterday! Though he owes me about $50, but whatever, it's a start. and now I'm off to use it on bus fare. Oh Money, how quickly you enter my life and how quickly you must leave it, I will miss you! :(

The Seed

I knew about this months ago (although this was premiered in 2005 at various film festivals), I hadnt gotten around to finding out what this actually was, but now I have, I'm planning on watching it(soon I hope).

Joe Hahn is the DJ of Linkin Park and has directed most of Linkin Park's videos to date. The Seed is his directorial debut for his first independent short film.

Plot summary off iTunes
The Seed tells the story of Sung. Portrayed by Will Yun Lee (Torque, Elektra, Die Another Day, Bionic Woman), a homeless veteran losing his mind on the banks of L.A River. Pursued by unseen forces, fighting unseen foes, Sung is ostensibly "just another lunatic" but as his invisible war continues under bridges and in tunnels, the viewer is taken deeper into his nightmare-into a nightmare of conspiracy, cloaking and the governments unseen war. Sung struggles to fight through what is visible to him, yet invisible to the world around him.

30second movie trailer:

I'm the one...

...Who usually complains about the cold (and then stupidly puts it in a blog for the whole world to see how big of a whiner I am) and last night it was, yes, COLD. I'm tossing and turning curling the ends of my blankets in under my feet, pulling the blanket over my head and then settling in for the fetal position. At 4 in the morning, I'm awoken by the coldness and now I cant get back to sleep. then it hit me, why the heck IS it so cold? it shouldnt even be this cold... . I look over to my window and it turns out after aerating my room yesterday when Jenn came over, I totally forgot to close them before I went to bed, So it was my doing all along, d'oh!

Death in Santaland

Annie was on about sending letters to Santa Claus (no idea why though...) and then Jenn reminded me that I saw something on Santa Claus just last week on the ABC.

It was quite an interesting documentary, I would have watched the whole thing if only the presenter's voice wasnt so darn annoying! The doco was called "Death in Santaland"

Here's a blurb I copied from Channel4.com

Jon Ronson travels to North Pole, Alaska, to see what he can find out about a plot by a gang of 13-year-olds to murder their classmates and teachers. This tiny, freezing town is the home of the American Santa, and the local school children are his elves. Does everybody here really love Christmas, or does too much festivity bring out the need to kill?

In April 2006 six 13-year-olds were arrested in North Pole for planning a mass murder. They were part of a gang of 15 'outsiders' who had drawn up a hit list and were going to take guns and knives into class to settle some scores.

They had planned to disable the school's power and telephone systems before carrying out the shootings and then escaping to Anchorage on the train. But they were foiled when the boy who was supposed to bring the weapons failed to show up.

Were they really serious? Would this have been another Columbine or Virginia Tech? Or was it just the talk of teenagers living in a fantasy world where it's Christmas 365 days a year?

Not much was revealed I dont think watching the documentary(but then I didnt watch the whole thing), but there are a few interesting interviews with locals and what goes on in this lil Christmas town in Alaska. Kinda freaky how "jolly" they are 24/7.

There's a conversation between Ron and one of the kid's (who was one of the ring leaders in this supposed massacre) father on Ron's Myspace BlogThis was in the documentary as well.

Pretty. Odd. Luck.

Photo stolen from Spin.com/Casey Flanigan

I was talking to Jenn last night about the possibilities of us going to Panic At The Disco's show in August. Possibilities were very low, for me anyways. I was only hoping of going, the ticket prices were already bumming me out at this point. I went to tickettek.com to see the actual prices of tickets (my last one was a mere guess), I told Jenn (about the Panic Pit (Mosh pit) and the big fancy show Panic might be displaying), she was excited and kept saying "Lets go! lets go! buy Buy BUY!" honestly I was getting excited too (she does that) and for a second, I forgot about the fact I didnt have money to actually buy the tickets or pay her back...but as fate would have it, when I clicked on the "BUY NOW" button, tickets for the "Panic Pit" were SOLD OUT...

...and now I'm off to find a job.

Being Broke and Car-less is NOT Fun :(

That was one of the greatest experiences of my life, my first LIVE show. I totally miss the vibe, the excitement, everything. Once you've heard your fave band/singer live its never the same again. I've been going to a couple of small venue sites once in a while to whose coming to Oz and whether I should go, none so far. I'm thinking of maybe going to Panic at The Disco's Sydney show in August. Hopefully by then I've got a job and a car, mainly...J-O-B. The Panic tix are about $80... . I should go to Bakers Delight on Monday and see if they have an opening, I desperately need a job, plus I'm seriously wasting my days away hanging on this computer, should at least get some life experiences, seeing how I'm suppose to be in the "real" world now.

Snake: "Dude, Did She Just Say She Was a Dude?"

I turned on the tele this arvo just as I got home and Judge Judy was on (I dont usually watch it). A woman was suing her ex-boyfriend for selling her stuff and not giving her part of the profits something something...Anyways her father stood up and started telling his side.

Father: He changed the locks so that she couldnt go in and get her stuff...*interrupted*

Judge Judy: Were you there?!

Father: No I wasnt...

Judge Judy: Then how would you know!?

Father: Because my Daught...*interrupted*

Judge Judy: I wouldnt listen to her if I were you right now

Father *scared* yes Sir

He called her "Sir"! that is hilarious! I wanted Judge Judy to dismiss the case just from him calling her "sir". This totally reminds me of a Simpson's episode where they had a parody of Judge Judy, Judge Constance Harm.

Bart is begging that the Judge dismisses his parents from punishment for his doings.

Judge Constance: *giving in* You remind me of me, when I was a boy

"Never said I Missed Her When Everyone Kissed Her...."

I am loving Panic at The Disco's new song and video "That Green Gentlemen" (I like the bikes^^). Actually I'm liking Panic's new sound, its still fun just a lil more toned down compared to thier last album.

He Has Got Me Stumped

The lead singer of Socratic reminds me of someone, but I cant put my finger on it and its doing my head in...

I Could Have Just Dried My Hands

The funniest thing happened to me today..no not really.

This afternoon as I went to go wash my hands, (you know after doing my business ;) ), so there are really three easy steps to washing your hands, well four if u count drying.

Step.1 Wet hands
Step.2 add soap and lather hands
Step.3 Rinse

I had just completed Step.2 and was onto step.3 and just as I was turning the faucet back on, the water pressure had gone down very very low to the point there wasnt any water. So I was running around (with dripping soapy hands) opening taps in hope for water, none! I told T.N to go outside to the water meter and check if some idiot had turned off the water, but no it was fine. I resorted to using the kettle (water from this morning, so it had cooled down, I wasnt THAT desperate to use boiling hot water *stare*) just as I did finish rinsing my hands after 10mins of no water (the longest 10mins ever!) the water was turned back on...(Just my luck) you know what come to think of it now, I could have just dried my hands...d'oh!

I dont think a Fish should be here Sir, I mean it's a TABLE

Went out to get my eyes checked today and so did my family. They just all come into the room, my goodness were they driving me nuts! especially my brother! So I thought the "P" looked like an "R" leave me alone, stupid idiot just had to keep saying "an R?! an R?! ahahahaha!!!".


Anyways my brother went and got a hair cut today and I found out that the table in the waiting area was a huge fish bowl!

***That's the table, (I took the liberty of moving the newspapers out of the way^^)***

***And that's the bottom of the fish bowl/table (there was only one lil fishy swimming around, I assume the rest died from all the hairspray in the room, Not really a great place to keep a fish I reckon)***

Along came ANOTHER spider

I was just NOW reading the MX newspaper that my mum brought home from work while she constantly chatted and ate her mandarin. I was reading and blocking her out as I usual do until she let out a loud shriek of terror which in turn made me jump and shriek too! I looked up at my mum to see her face overtaken by shock. She was looking down at something, I look down and there was a massive SPIDER! Turns out a spider had decided to hitch a ride on my mum while we were out "picking up" my sister (she decided to stay another 30mins), so while she was eating her mandarin the spider started to crawl down her arm until she noticed it, stupidly she thought it was a clump of loose thread (she was wearing a black jacket) so she tried to PICK it out and you can probably guess the rest.

I was going to take a photo of it but yet again my phone was out of reach (seriously the ONE time I dont have my phone with me, I actually needed it.) The last time I tried to capture (with my phone camera) a spider that was in my house, it disappeared when I came back with my phone. Total bummer. Anyways my mama swept the spider out the door, so we're safe and I can finally breathe normally now (my mum startled me real bad).

Things My Sister Says

Watching television in my brother's room just as Ghost Whisperers starts.

Sister: Hey! It's that GUY! From Ghost Whisperer!
Me: This is Ghost Whisperers....

"The Psycho Blogger?!"

Watched Made Of Honor today with Jenn. Best part (other than hanging with Jenn of course) The tickets were $9!! Score! When ever I can save *grinning*. Fun movie, nothing that any other chick flick hasnt done before, but still fun to watch, definitely had a good laugh. My fave scene I think would have been...Patrick Dempsey's character wearing a Mini Kilt while around macho Scottish men, hilarious!

The plan was actually to watch it NEXT week, but apparently Jenn didnt have a class today so suggested we'd go today instead. I was still asleep when she txted me around 10.30am...? (I'm quite a deep sleeper....) it wasnt until her second txt that the vibration of the recieved message woke me up. It was ok though, it was about time that I got up anyways and I did want to give her TRANSFORMERS (by the way, COOL movie).

Before that we ate Hungry Jacks. After that we went to a cafe, shared a slice of Triple Choc cake with had a coffee/hot chocolate. and then HOME time (needed to get home before dark, my mum doesnt trust that I can get home before then...she has no faith in me at all :P)

Some snaps from today.


**No.3. That was our order number**

***Jenn got a slightly spilt cappuccino*** *** The child that I am, got a Hot chocolate (ironically, I dont even like chocolate milk)*** ***Jenn enjoying her Cappuccino (I'm sure I took another shot of her, but I cant seem to find it...)******Triple Chocolate Cake, A La Mode (picture does this cake no justice, it actually looked really yummy)***

***and me and my goofy smile***

Not That He'll Appreciate it REALLY

I'm planning to buy my brother a Graphics/Drawing tablet for his birthday (he doesnt read this thing, So I'm safe) which is literally in a months time and I have no idea what I'm actually looking for (besides the obvious). So I'm going to have to research this thing to death (has to be perfect), save heaps of money up and hopefully find it in time for his birthday. @@

Beep Beep

Just came back from my driving lesson. It was an ok one today, practiced lane changes, 3-point turns and curb side stops. No major difficulties. As usual my driving instructor chats to me, I guess it helps loosen me up so I dont worry so much about the driving and just go with the car. Earlier in the drive he tells me that he was tired and hungry, I just nodded and let him talk while I drove. So I had been doing a few reverse parking, just you know to get it down, dont want any mistakes popping up during my test in two months. So I finish my (presumed) last reverse park before I have to go home, and he has just taken out his LUNCH, and so I got a lil distracted, only because he wipped it out just as I was looking back, so as I turned, I caught a glimpse of his food (rice with eggs, I think). He asked "do you want to do another one?" I didnt hear him and thought he said "did you want one?" I totally looked at his food (for like a millisecond) and then realised ooooooooh! reverse parking! "sure I'll do another". Yeah...

Had to pick up a girl, who would then drive me home. You can always tell when they've only had like one lesson; They move too fast out of the curb, they dont turn back quick enough when moving out of the curb, they accelerate when turning, they break when doing lane changes and so on... This one was definately one of them. She was quite chatty too, said hi to me when I got out of the drivers seat so she could drive me home. Asked me how old I was because apparently I looked too young to be driving (she's from vietnam, she thinks 18 is young to be having a drivers license, dont ask me why.), spoke in viet to my instructor like I didnt understand (not about me though), my instructor told her that I did in fact understand vietnamese, she turns back and asks "do you?" and I said "yeah" *smiling*. Anyways, she drove me home, I didnt say anything, I just sat there quietly judging her, (no. I'm kidding I dont do that, too much brain straining). Though I did notice she was driving and turning quite fast with lack of control (not dangerously, but the instructor was worried and told her to slow down a bit more) I may or may not have been freaking out a lil, it was suppose to be only a 15min drive back home, but the instructor used the opportunity to teach her lane changes and stuff, so there was a delay. I was so glad when I got home, glad to be out of the car! My instructor turns to me while I unbuckled my seatbelt and asked jokingly "were you scared?" I gave a forced smile and said "heh..it was alright..." :S he laughed, I know that was a bit rude of me, it kinda just slipped out. oops. Well thats one more hour added to my driving experience.

oh yeah my brother called me while I was out (not while I was driving obviously, it's illegal, and I'd like to drive a car on me own at least once). He couldnt find the AAA batteries I bought yesterday, ( he told me they were for school, so I had to go to 7/11 to buy it! darn expensive it was! I didnt have time to go to Franklins, my bus was coming. but then...it was a whole 20mins late anyways! and now I find out that he needed 3 not 2!) *eye rolling* said he was hungry and blah blah blah. honestly where would he be without me?

I'm Excited!

Hey Guess what?! Season 1 of Pushing Daisies is coming out on DVD in the UK on June 23rd! and do you know what that means?! Yup that's right, I'm going to BUY it!!! Yay!!!

Kinda weird how they already have a dvd released over there when the show has only just started to air there, but who's complaining?! Not me. uh ah! *huge stupid grin on face*.

It's The First Day Of The Month!

I cyber pinch and punch you all! No returns. ahahahaha!

Dont Talk To Me, You Really Dont Want To

What are the chances? that for the past 2 and a half years of me constantly riding the bus without a single soul talking to me, that TODAY of all days TWO complete strangers come up and start "chatting" to me. What are the chances? Wait. I hope this isnt becoming a trend.

First stranger. I was sitting at the bus stop waiting for my bus (as you would do) and a lady crosses in front of me and then sits down besides me. From the corner of my eye I thought she was African and I thought "hmm I havnt seen her around here before, she must have just moved in" But what would I know? I didnt even look up to look at her. I should have. After a few minutes of silence (well I was listening to my music, so no "awkward" silences) She says something, I look up and I find out that it's the mother of a Chinese girl who goes to the same school as my sister. She asks "you have a sister who goes to [name of my sister's school] right?" I quickly said yes. She smiled and kept on asking me questions like "do you go to uni?" (typical) and "why didnt you go uni?" and "why dont you do nursing? Good pay" and everything else on schooling, I answered and justified politely. No need to get offended, I pretty much expect it now, no one can take the fact that I want to do Hospitality so i let them be. Then the bus driver came and they chatted, phew! I didnt mind chatting with the lady she seemed nice but I'm not a good person to chat with. honestly. Oh she did continue talking to me when we got onto the bus, apprently she was getting off at my stop as well.

Going home: I totally missed my bus going home, so I had to wait another half an hour and decided to buy Hungry Jacks (I hadnt eaten all morning, so I got home and scuffled the lot down in a few minutes).

Second stranger. A young man? I dont know, I couldnt tell if he was a school student or a student. He was wearing black suit pants, white long sleeve button up shirt with what looked like a Billabong school looking backpack. Oh and he had the thickest glasses I've ever seen! He was on the bus before me, when I finally got into the bus (the queue was long today) I take my ticket and I see him coming back down to the bus driver, I didnt take notice, just had to step aside so he could pass, I take a seat with a buzzer attached. I'm sitting there getting comfortable and I notice he's coming back and looking at me, I'm thinking "he wasnt sitting here before was he?" "He's not going to ask for it back is he?!" LoL I know, stupid questions but possible. He then starts asking me something

"um..."
(oh no he isnt actually going to ask me to move is he? there's plenty of seats around.)
"Are you going to [suburb]?"
Yeah
"oh ok, I was worried I was on the wrong bus. I'm kinda new around this area, so i'm a lil paranoid"
*fake smile* Oh ok, no I catch this bus all the time, you're on the right bus
"oh good or me and you would be on the wrong bus right now. I havnt seen you around [something something, I missed what he sed, didnt bother asking. I really should have just taken my earphones out]"
Well I usually go the other way
"oh. Are you getting off at the train station?"
No I'm getting off after the train station. You getting off there?
"Before the train station, well, yeah at the train station"
(I couldnt help looking at his glasses, they maginfied his eyes all wierd @@)
"[says something i completely miss]"
sorry what was that?
"what movie did you see?"
(I totally thought he asked me "are you Retarded?") sorry. what movie havnt I seen?
"no what movie did you watch at the cinemas?"
*confused*
"did you go to the cinemas?"
no....

and that was the end of the awkward chat. I was actually worried he would miss his stop, he seemed really lost. but he got off fine. I was going home when the school kids were going home (dammit. I dont like anything that reminds me of school. how can anyone miss school? honestly. ) so the bus was packed like tin of sardines. If only I hadnt missed my other bus.

Ok I forget what I was suppose to actually say, so I'll leave it there.