Happy Birthday Twee!

Hey Dear sister,

You drive me crazy every now and then (ie. today with your "party")

But I will alway treasure the times I spend with you.

Wishing you a Happy 11th Birthday!

Much Love

Nhi

Test Tomorrow....Time To clean

hmmm Kitchen Studies test tomorrow? I think I'll go clean my room, its about time that I do...heh heh... That's what I do when I have assignments to do or tests to study for. I go and get side track by doing unnecessary cleaning (even if my room has been a sty for about 3 months now. Nothing gets me more motivated than having to "studying").

Anyways now that I have finished cleaning my room and my study table, i should start studying. wish me luck.

I am lost. I want to start over. I want a new identity. I want to go far away to a place where no one knows me. I am lost & confused...

I've decided, I'm going to makeover myself. I'm going to change. My look. My life. My thoughts. I need change. This will probably not happen over night, but damn it! I will do it.

I havnt been feeing like myself lately. I havnt been as joyful and as carefree as I used to be. I have a lot of doubt in my mind about everything I'm doing. I'm not thinking clearly. and I'm getting really easily iratated with EVERYTHING and everyone lately....and what's worse is I take it out on them (being rude, selfish and sarcastic), I'm such a jerk.(I'm sorry....). I want to keep my mouth shut, I want to keep to myself, let the world go by, but I cant..why?! What the heck is the matter with me? (stop bringing everyone down with you!)

I need time to think...I need to sort out my life.

Ramble Ramble Ramble

I dont like where I am now, I dont feel like I'm progressing in my life. What happened to my passion? What happened to my will to succeed? I dont know. Just lately, in my studies, in my work. it's just another day. Nothing new, nothing worth remembering. I have no clue what's going on with me. I'm starting to slack off and I havnt even begun anything! I'm really disappointed with myself. (oh suck it up and deal).

and blast! the business subjects I must endure every Monday and Tuesday, I swear I cannot be bothered, I know it's nothing, most is really common sense, but it's doing my head in. Whatever, I signed up for it, why complain for?

Work. Work work work, ever since they start praising me, I start to slack off. Why?! I shouldnt, this is why I dont like compliments and good comments, It just feels like I cant improve. I like being giving constructive criticism, it gives me something to do next time, a goal if you will. Am I being absurd? Egotistic? Ahhhhhhh! I just cant think.

Too many people believe in me, too many people trust me, I cant deal, I will disappoint them all.

There were times I just wanted to look away from the screen

Saw WATCHMEN with my brother today and...Whoa...