Back to Studying.

Started college last week. A new term, means new lecturers and new...text books. I've already received a semi-truck load of assignments. Fun fun fun (not). This term, not as fun as last term, what I see so far anyways. Could change over time, we'll see. All of my lecturers seem so damn serious and strict. Where's the fun in that? Last term, we could joke with them, have fun while learning, everything was a lot more relaxed. This term, I've got all these lecturers I've never seen before and none of them smile. They occasionally joke, but with no expression. What the?

Looks like I've got to pull up my socks this term and do some actual studying. Not a cake walk like the first two terms. Speaking of which, I received my transcript on Wednesday and I did quite well last term. Except for Sales and Marketing, which I admit, I did suck at.

Not all bad this term. Most of my friends from term 1 have reunited with me for term 3, I feel a lot better, we're a very close unit and work well together. I've also noticed that the Commercial Cookery students (that's me) and the Hospitality Management students have been segregated *gasp*. Ok, I kinda dont care.

Wow, Term 3. Another term to go then I'm on my industry placement. Which means I could be be working overseas and have to fend for myself. Excited.

At the moment...I'm bored, I've got assignments to start on, but I'm still in holiday mode. Anyways Peace out.

Ok to tell you the truth, I'm baking 'cause its something to keep my mind off what's really going on. When I'm baking I focus on whatever I'm baking and forget my troubles. I dont eat much of what I bake, maybe only 1 to test and that's about it. I bake for the heck of it.

The past two weeks of my college break have been a huge bore. Doing nothing makes me realise things I never wanted to think about. I need to study, I need to work, I need to go out to distract myself.

Lately something that had troubled me in the past, something I had thought I had gotten over has surfaced again. I didnt provoke it to come, it just did and I want it to go away-but it wont-someone out there (in the higher order of life) is trying to..I dont know. I just dont like the fact that this subject has risen again from the dark pits of my past. Its causing me grief and confusion and I cant really discuss it, which totally blows! I'm going slightly insane (if that's even possible).

And the Baking Continues...

Been baking quite a bit this week. These will be my last for a while because I've got work tonight and for the next two days then I've got college starting again next week. So that means no time for finding new recipes and experimenting. Bummer.

This is my attempt at making Friands (pictured).

Fave treats

Gingerbread men -another old fave treat of mine ^^. Baked a 2 dozen or so today. Was a pain making these little guys- the dough became soft really easily when I took them out of the fridge, so they were pretty hard to handle when I was cutting them and transferring them to the baking tray.

They came out pretty well and they taste good too. yay!

Say Cheese-cake

I love cheesecakes. So I decided to bake some assorted mini cheesecakes this arvo. Though I reckon they look really pretty, they dont taste as great as I'd like them too. especially the chocolate cheese cake. I didnt have any block chocolate I could melt so I had to substitute it with cocoa powder, which doesnt give off the same flavour. Boo :(

***Lemon cheesecake***

***Mocha Cheesecake***
***Chocolate Cheesecake***

***and the massive mess I made of the kitchen***

"why'd you punch yourself?"

Had a BBQ at the beach with a few friends (new and old) from college to celebrate the end of term 2 today.

Dumb things I did today: accidentally punched myself and put my finger on the hot plate. What the frack?

Anyways, not to bore you to death with details, I'll just post up some photos of what the day consisted of.

***Preparing the BBQ***

***Placing foil on one of four hot plates***

***Everyone enjoying the day***

***We all had to bring some food for the BBQ and what we ended up with was a whole crap load of susages and chicken (not pictured)***
***mmmm BBQ pigeon (that's what they get for trying to eat our food, we eat them, mwhahaha!)***
***some running to burn offthe food***

***and then...crash landed, d'oh!***

***staring out into the waters***

***having sand castle competitions (I won ;))***

***trying to get the sand out of my shoes***

***GROUP PHOTOS***

Additional Photo credits: Kristine and Winston

I cant Believe I'm still 19.

I'm 19 years old, I havnt acknowledged that fact...odd. I dont like being "19". I'm stuck in limbo, I'm not a teen but I'm not really an adult neither. I want to be 20. The other day someone asked me how old I was turning this year and unconsciously I answered "21" then realised, I'm not even 20 yet! What the heck? Do I want to be 20 that badly? (kinda). Though, odd now that this week a few people that I've studied with and worked with (for months now) have asked me my age and I think "omg, I'm only 19" I feel like such a kid. Not to mention people's reactions when they find out "Aw, you're only a baby". Bleh. Only 4 more months to go...

Even though I feel like a kid, I feel like time is running out and I havnt acommplished much. I know it's only the beginning of anything-could-happen but I feel like I'm missing out on something and I'm trying to catch up... There are so many things that I want to do, and so many unclear ideas floating in my head, I just wish that everything would fall into place already so I can start on whatever it is that I want to do. But what's the fun in that, right?

Life is getting Better

I'm officially on my break! 2 weeks of non studying and not staying up late doing assignments. Yes! I still have work, but 3 days a week aint too bad. I should be at work right now, doing another double shift, but my boss txtd me and told me to come in at 5pm instead. Life is good again.

So I spent my morning doing some shopping, bought some gifts for my boss, whose wife had just delivered a baby girl last friday. Congrats to her. Little baby Belinda. I went into Cabbage Pumpkin Patch to buy two beanies (it being winter and all soon) I wanted to buy her clothes, but the last time I bought baby clothes, this was for my cousin, the clothes were too small. So I avoided those, though there were so many cute dresses but then they were a tad pricey for just a piece of fabric, so watevs.

I'm going to drop by work for a minute to give the gifts to my boss, 'cause he'll be gone by the time I start work this arvo, and I wont see him till next Thursday. Then I'm off to...college to get my assessment results (Kinda didnt want to go, but I should).

Photo of the gifts I bought.

Mix Tapes are Back

This is NEAT. It's a usb that looks like a retro Cassette tape. The usb is retractable so you cant tell that it's not a real cassette. Me likey.

Mix Tape USB Flash Drive From Fi-Hi

Twas a Good day, I Must Say

Looks like my luck is turning around. I won $15 playing a $2 Stratchie this morning. Pretty happy about that. I used the $15 to get a hair cut, it's pretty short now :s, but I'm ok with it ^^ (need a wee bit of change).

I had Bun Rieu today, it's a Vietnamese dish- Vermicelli in tomato and crab broth. So yum. I have to admit this, I've never had it before (I know *gasp*) and it's my mum's fave dish (though she had spicy beef noodle soup today ) she rarely eats it though (I've never seen her eat it actually). Might be my fave Viet dish now (my friends know which dish I avoid most- Pho *cringe*)

I'm feeling a lil exhausted, I stayed up after getting home from work (1.30am) work until 3am this morning doing assignments (*cough* Procrastinating) and then my mum woke me up early to drive her and the family to the eye docs and other errands that need must be done today. So I've just gotten home, tired, but cant nap, must do assignment (which is due Monday). I'm also sick-blocked nose and coughing.

Just want to end off with the lyrics to the new Stuck In My Head song that's playing. You can buy this song for a minimum of $1 off their website which goes towards their cause that you can read at the website. I love this band and what they do with their music.

Mae "Night/Day"

I've been dreaming such a long time

And I've been waiting for the sunshine

But all my friends they say I'm getting by with sleeping in...

They say I'm sleeping in...

You know whenever I try I want to get it right

But I distract my focus and blur my own sight'

Cause I've convinced myself that my best can only come in the moonlight

And I keep sleeping inI keep on sleeping in

And missing something

(Close your eyes before daylight breaks)

There are things about me I just can't ignore

I know I want to change and I see that door

On the other side daylight decides there will be war with sleeping in

Oh, I know there'll be no more sleeping in

I wait, I wait, I wait only in jest

I wait, I wait, I wait with no need to rest I wait

"The day, the day, the day will come again," I say

A ray of light can only get in if I say

I've been putting off this purification a rebirth and a regeneration inside of me

And I've been saying "no" for far too long even though something brand new is coming out of me

I'm going to wake up, wake up every morning and then decide

I'm going to wake up, wake up every morning and make it mine

Rain or shine

I wake, I wake, I wake and greet the day

The light is on the change is made I can see my way

The day, the day, this day has come again

Each ray of light will make its way into the core of me

I always knew that I was missing something I know this time that I will leave nothing up to chance

And in the wake of this brand new day I see the light and I feel the sun and I'll do it all again tomorrow

I'm going to wake up, wake up every morning and then decide

I'm going to wake up, wake up every morning and make it mine