Yes, we're Asian and we can speak English

Jenn and I went to Jervis Bay on Monday instead of the Blue mountains. Lucky for us the weather didnt let us down and we got to enjoy the most parts of our trip. We had no plans whatsoever, we had no idea what we were going to do or where we were going to stay and thats how our trip was, full of the unexpected.

Picked up Jenn at 8pm on Sunday night, but didnt start driving until 11pm because my car decided not to co-operate with me and the NRMA were having a  "busy night",  so supposedly it was a 90min wait for them. In the end my car did start without the NRMA, although now it seems like I've been seeing them everywhere...a little irritating.

We took the Grand Pacific "scenic drive" for the view, but of course, it being the middle of the night, there wasnt much of a scene, we did though spot some deers (???), a fox and some rabbits. Unfortunate for me, we didnt see any Emu... dratz. We arrived in Jervis Bay at 3am where to our surprise all the motels were full. We couldnt believe it, which lead to the phone calls. I called the 1st motel on the list~ I was greeted by a drowsy gentlemen who was obviously not please by my 3am wake up call...heh. Jenn  got a better response from the second motel which was full but did take the moment to direct us to a near by motel with vacancies.

4am...when we finally arrived to Nowra motel. We were getting pretty tired by that time (of course right?) The receptionist took his sweet time to open the door for us so we called sign in, but then of course it was the odd hours of the wee morning, but it was cold and miserable :(. He came to the door barefooted and half asleep. I was feeling guilty for waking him up, I think we both were from the awkward silence in the room and the lack of eye contact to each other. The receptionist was nice (super in fact) because he decided to give up the room for half price (hells yeah!).

Four and half hours of sleep later we were back on our way to Jervis bay. Totally bummed out that we couldnt trash the motel room a bit more...boo. Next time, next time :). Time to grab some brekky! During our little drive around Jervis Bay the night before, we spotted a little humble bakery that we HAD to go to for breakfast. In the morning we found the bakery packed to the brim and had a small and very simple breakfast menu, so that wasnt going to be good enough for us (at that time anyway). Found a nice Cafe Deli called Supply and had an amazing breakfast there.

Checked out this sweet shop called "Licketty Lick" where I took photos and bought a Hazelnut fudge bar which I have yet to eat. We witnessed the Anzac Parade..which really wasnt that exciting...not that Anzac day ever was for me...heh. Walked down to Hukisson Bay and took some photos. The area is just so peaceful, too bad we werent really dressed for the beach, I really wanted to just stroll through the waters, but it was a tad bit cold.

We spent the day driving around the Jervis Bay area, but really ended up back to where we had started in Hukisson Bay. There wasnt really much else than that town centre, but we happy after 2 hours driving around and not getting anywhere. Although most of the restaurants and shops were closing early because of Anzac day and most restaurants were full our lunch was very late and very light. It was nice just to finally sit and relax at the Bakery even if the weird old couple near us kept looking over at us...but I was too exhausted to care.

Throughout the day we noticed quite a few people looking at us, which felt really uncomfortable. Jenn and I can't figure out what it was, but we did notice people did seem shocked that we could speak English properly...how sucky that realisation was that most people assumed that we couldnt speak English because we were Asian. Any hows it just added to the fun to watch their expressions change ^^,

All in all, had an amazing time~ mainly just because I could hang out with Jenn again, we havnt seen each other for what felt like ages. Lots of laughter as always. We took heaps of photos, went to every available restroom every hour, had good use out of my navigator and my car. My car went well with no hitches (besides at the beginning), I'm very proud. On our way home we went to Maccas which seems like a ritual of ours, can't go home without going through a drive thru. Everything was just awesome awesome. After that trip, took me two days to recover, especially going back to work...so hard.

Easter Long Weekend

I've got the whole long weekend off, so great :) I know, I've been on a two month break but it's good to know that I dont have to work public holidays and I also get paid, awesoooooome.

Last night I caught up with my high school buddies,  Catherine, Annie and Milly. The original plan was to have dinner at Burwood but I'm so glad that we decided to go to Darling Harbour instead, because we had quite a surprise when there was a "Hoopla Festival" going on and we were able to have our night livened up.

The drive to the city was interesting...my nav was taking me on a route that I didn't want (ie taking me in a huge loop), but in the end we got there...eventually.

The night began with dinner at Blackbird Cafe, followed by fireworks and then we ended it with a side show at the Carnival of Dreams. The fireworks were amusing (well, to me anyways), there was so much smoke coming out from the fireworks that by the end of it, we could barely see the fireworks at all behind the huge cloud of smoke (I suspect cheap fireworks...).The sideshows were also a delight, I laughed quite a bit (and soon began to lose my voice...), I do love watching things like that. We payed for one show to watch a "Russian" contortionist who demonstrated the many uses of hoops in an infomercial. The second was outside of the carnival, of a street artist do some, what I think is a kind of mime. I found him hilarious.

I had a wonderful night with the girls. We're so lucky that the sky did clear up, since it was lightly raining earlier that day. I also tried to use my camera...but that failed. I've got a lot of learning to do.  

Later I will be going with Jenn to the Blue Mountains (she finally had some free time to see me, super excited).

He Loves Me...Not

He loves me...He loves me not...

It wasn't going to last forever and we both knew that. Forever ended yesterday.
 He never did love me, deep inside I knew that but for a long time I pretended that he did because I loved him and I still do... I must be stupid but I can't help it.

I have never felt this way about anyone before, from the very beginning he had a hold on me and he didn't even know. Many have questioned my choice to be with him, they had doubts about him but I have never had a second thought or regret. He has always been good to me, I have never had to worry that he would ever lie or cheat on me, because, as I mentioned before, he's honest about everything to me, even about the fact that he doesn't love me. Its all been real, too real and I guess this is one of the reasons why I can't hate him. Hating him would be so much easier...


The drive to Gosford yesterday was hard, this one sided relationship was going on for far too long, and I knew that one day we would soon resent each other and I didn't want that. I had to end it even if it is causing me so much heart ache right now. It was mutual, we wanted the best for each other...but deep inside I really wished that he had held me tightly, kiss me and told me that everything will be alright and that he loved me...he didn't, and that was reality.

I hugged him as tightly as I could yesterday for the last time, held in my tears for as best as I could and said goodbye. I wish I could say that I could still be friends with him..but that's just far too complicated.

He was my first love...he was my knight in shining armour, but he wasn't my prince.

*fingers crossed*

I went to Newport beach with my sister today. Took a bunch of photos and left just before it started raining, Phew!

I've got another weeks trial with this chocolate cafe, so stressful. I don't feel like myself at all when working there, I guess its the whole new environment and working outside of the kitchen. I really do hope that I do get the job, It has great hours, great pay and its the most decent work place I've been to so far and it would be so beneficial for me if I can learn the art of chocolate making as well. *fingers crossed* I will know by the end of the week. I havnt had to go through so many trials in all the years of working. My competition is strong too, and she seems to have had experience...damn. I'm hanging in there.

Long distant relationships SUCK

Trying to memorise 40 different kinds of chocolates and their fillings before bed is proving to be difficult...I have another trial with the chocolate cafe tomorrow. So I havnt officially gotten the job yet. I guess I've got tough competition. *stressing out*

I also bought my new car (well used car) two days ago. A black Toyota Yaris YRS Hatchaback. Loving it. Except for the radio and CD not working...bummer. My car also has Love Heart exhaust pipes...er, what? yeah...

Ken came back yesterday, I picked him up at the airport. of course with my navigation skills, I missed the exit and took a round detour to get him. Bleh...anyway. He's back in Gosford, working, it sucks. Its getting hard..this long distance relationship thing...I'm seeing him less and less recently. :'(