"I hope you continue to age gracefully" What the Frick?

This guy makes me so tired sometimes, physically and mentally. I hate that he never argues with me. I hate that he never picks up the phone when I need him. I hate that he's always late to see me but always early for work. I hate that when I want to stay mad at him, he smiles and I cant help but smile as well, frick.

Anyhows. I'm exhausted. I am going to sleep in tomorrow. I've been waking up early on my days off. First christmas, planning and cooking lunch and dinner for the family. Thankgoodness the asian grocery stores were still open or I would have been screwed. All week I had no time to buy ingredients for christmas because every damn day and night I was working, even when I wasnt suppose to (frickn' boss). Spent the whole day cooking. Made the sibs clean. it's the least they could do.

Boxing day I spent with Pipe, got all dolled up. We watched Avatar, was a really good film (but both Pipe and I were starving and I couldnt pay much attention, since my stomach was growling all through the film). Finally had some lunch at a Korean restaurant. We had to go back to my house so I could take my mum to the temple and after we had Korean BBQ for dinner because apparently the boy was craving it. It was nealry midnight by the time I got home, that boy is so lucky I can drive. Speaking of which, I let him drive my car last night around the parking lot, it was fun and scary since he almost scratched someone's car.

Time to cook dinner...and then sleep.

Somebody please tell me I look older than this girl by 9 years. So tired of people asking for my ID when I'm with her.

"Nhi, can you work tonight?" Frick.

I highly doubt John, the owner of the bar knows who the hell I am, with the thousands of staff in the associations of bars and hotel that his family owns, but it's nice to know that someone at my bar acknowledges me. $50 bonus, better than nothing. boss/chef "if you want more money, work more" heck no.

I'm dying at work, I didnt realise I would be so busy, Pizza Pizza pizza every gosh damn day. People let me go home. Another double today. I havnt had time to wrap my christmas prezzies (thank goodness I bought them all ) and buy ingredients for christmas lunch and dinner. Shites. I need a massage or a hot bath because my muscles and feet are still killing me. I've lost heaps of weight over just these past two days from having no time to eat. frick.

Time for work. Peace.

I can't decide between this one, this one and this one. hmmm...

If anyone is stuck on what to get me for xmas, that book would be a perfect gift (hint HINT).

Today is the only day I'm free until Christmas day so I did all my christmas shopping today. I am completely wiped out. Also had to buy new sneakers but I couldnt decide between three pairs, tried to call Pipe (the guy is obsessed with shoes) but he didnt pick up my phone calls, so annoying and in the end I didnt buy any. I think I have to wait til next year to buy new shoes (I know Boxing Day sales and junk, but I doubt the ones I want will be on sale). Bumped into some of Julius's church friends in the shoe store, asked for his opinion, was a no brainer apparently "get the Vans, they're cool"..I'm still iffy.

Working all week until Christmas and then until New Years Eve (and hopefully not into New Years). It's been fun though, with all the guys are working we all laugh and make fun of each other, so the extra long hours of work dont seem so bad. The new manager is beginning to be more relaxed around me, he was pretty shy at the beginning, didnt talk much to anyone in the kicthen, now he's all cheeky. It's cute (shhh don't tell Pipe :P). Also getting Christmas bonuses this week, boo ya!

I want to run away...from everything

I dont know how I feel...these past two days have been a bit of a disappointment...I want life less serious with those that I love...

laugh and play with me like no one is looking even when they are...

Boss is giving me more shifts, I appreciate it, but I'm getting bored with this job, I want a change, I want to start my career. I started looking for a Patisserie job on Monday, it's scary walking in and asking, when I'm sure most of them arent looking for new employees. Though most took the time and gave me a chance to talk and tell them my story. I was going to continue this morning before I had to go to work this arvo...but boss called me in early, and so there goes that out the window. Starting again early tomorrow morning. hopefully by the new year I've got something new to look forward too (I'm still keeping my current job, pay's good ;)).

I want to have some fun! Maybe I'll buy a ticket to Melbourne to do a bit of shopping therapy, I need a new scene, I need to go somewhere I can think and know that those I want to run away from can't find me. I feel trapped and I cant do anything...I need to escape...

I love being with him...

Hung out with Pipe yesterday. We spent most of the time at his home...bore. I dont like being stuck inside. So after  2hours, I finally convinced him to take me out. Though it was almost time for him to go to work, bleh. So the hour left that we had, I spent with him at the Cupcake Bakery (where he made that lil piece above), taking photos and laughing at each other. I also got to see where he worked for the first time, at this fancy "hatted" restaurant. I spent the last 10minutes messing with him, since it was a such a prestige restaurant I wanted to embarass him, but ended up embarassing myself as well when the chef came out..oops. Lots of fun.

"This Macaroon tastes gross..."

I bought this wicked robot necklace on Friday at the China Town market thing they were having. I love this thing, new fave toy. Patrick was trying to haggle a cheaper price for me but failed...boo but thanks for trying :).

Caught up with Catherine (my best from high school) last Tuesday after work. Since we both werent hungry at 4pm I decided to take Catherine to Surry Hills in search for the Sparkle Cupcakey...that failed, and I didnt realise it had been 2 hours :S whoops...did work up an appetite though. We had Thai and talked a lot about what had been going on in lives. It has been so long since I saw her last.

I also bought a new camera! Still bummed out that I had lost (or worse, someone had stolen it, which is really not cool) my old one, I did really love that one, I had taken so many memories with that one. Not to dwell on what has been, I'm gonna capture new moments with this one. (and mum doesnt suspect a thing, phew!).

Today I spent the whole day dress shopping, for my sister this time, thankgoodness. No luck with her too, but it's been fun. I bought a new book "Matchless, A Christmas Story" by Gregory Maguire. Going to have to continue shopping with her later this week.

I'm wiped out, time to make dinner and watch Seven Pounds.