Things are just awesome right now. I couldnt be more happier with where I am now than I did just one month ago.
Its funny how things can change so quickly... But really, now that I think back, it was only me who could make myself feel so down and no other. In actual facts, not much has changed, just my view.
I have a lot of love and support from so many people, and it makes me feel a lot more confident in myself. I needed that. I need someone to believe in me. Ok so sometimes, I may get all stubborn and hard headed for no reason at all,I regret that sometimes. I'm trying my best now, to be more open and not so....well...you know.
I've also got an awesome boyfriend, who takes care of me and drives me insane at the same time. Though I love that we can still joke, make fun of each other and argue about the most ridiculous things like we did the first time we met, and it's still cool.He can be so darn annoying the whole day at work-distracting me and giving me headaches, yet by the end of the day, it's fun and that's what get's me through. That's awesomeness. Also lucky for him it's cute or he'd have a black eye by now.
To be honest, with Mr Apple...I never really did love him...in that way, and when I ever did say the L word...it never meant as much as it does now with Ken. I wish I didnt but I do...regret sometimes saying "Love" just to make someone happy. That word has a whole new meaning now...being with Ken has made me feel a whole different way...something I hadnt felt before. I feel safe. When I'm with him, I breathe easy, I dont think of anything, or worry. I'm so happy and grateful to have such a wonderful person.
Well it's late and its time for beddy byes. Got a date with my mister.
