I have half a mind to just do a mechanic's course myself.

I'm getting sick and I'm going to head to bed soon. I'm sick from driving all day, running errands and trying to find a car repair shop who will just find a glass to fit my VW, no flipping luck. I'm so tired.

On the flip side; I'm excited this week, meeting up with friends, new and old. Starting with tomorrow, catching up with my dear best friend from high school after work. Hopefully it doesnt rain and I feel a whole lot better by then.

I also have drop by college tomorrow to pay my school fees. Dread. Plus I have to buy a new digital camera this week, before my mum finds out I've actually lost my other one... :S. Dammit.

Must head to bed. Must get well. gnight.

"Thinking about what to do wont get things done"

I took this photo a while back...of an elderly woman trying to sell chilli plants infront of a Vietnamese bakery in Bankstown.

I am bored...already...it's only been 3 days since college finished and I'm bored...

My plans were to:

• Fix my garden, I want to plant heaps of veg and herbs.
• Find a second job in a patisserie.
• Get my car windows fixed. I have 3 windows in total that are now screwed
• Wake up early everyday-try not to waste my days away sleeping so much
• Try and bake...so far this week I've only made mini cheesecakes for Pipe and Jenn.

Tomorrow...I have work...12hs of work and I wont be home until 4am the following morning because the trains finish two minutes before I finish work, so night ride for me...(I hate night ride...). I'm trying to think of what to do during my break tomorrow...no one to play with me. Probably buy a magazine and sit at a cafe somewhere...drink heaps and heaps of caffeine. The last time I went home that late I was so sleepy it was hard to keep my eyes open just in case I missed my stop..then a hooker had to ask me if I was ok because apparently, I looked drunk...great...definatly avoiding that situation again. Dammit just realised I have to walk home too...shoot me now...

I fell asleep watching the Martha Stewart Show

One more week and fin! Just need to survive one more week.

Baked for three days straight this week, all in the middle of the night mind you and in between work and college too.

• Sunday night baked a layered Chocolate mud and Red velvet cake with Cream cheese frosting for dear Reenie's birthday. Tasted quite nice, unfortunately with the assignments due on the same day I couldnt frost the cake :(.
• Monday night baked for my sister's bake fair. I made cupcake ice cream. So the cupcakes were baked in kiddie cup cones and when the cupcakes rose they looked like scoops of ice cream. with a bit of icing and creativity they would have looked rad. But unfortunately mine didnt. (note to self: next time, use a basic chocolate cupcake mix not Mud).
• and finally Tuesday night, I baked adzuki bean filled chocolate cupcakes with green tea cream cheese frosting for Pipe's aunts bday.

Mum wasnt too happy about me baking so much and leaving such a mess. Also she's complaining that I'm wasting a lot of electricity, which I am, but muuuuuuuuuuuuuuum how am I going to practice if I dont bake?
Ok getting back to my assignment. The photo above is of a little scribble Marcella drew in my book a few months back in class, I spotted it last night while I was struggling through my Accomadation assignment, it made me smile.

More cupcake obsessions by me

Via Bakerella

Too funny, its a mini burger made out of cupcakes and cookie French Fries. I'm not so into the whole theme cooking, though I commend those with the skills and imagination who come up with these cute creations. I'm more into the elegant, classic, simple sort of desserts.

Ok I'm going a lil crAzY with this whole Patisserier idea, I really want to do it. I should get back to doing my assignments though (yeah sure, "get back to", as if I started any...).

I cant believe it's November already, it's almost the end of the year. It's almost a new year. so much to do, so little time. I'm going to go out and buy a planner, so much I want to accomplish before the year is out.

Wish I had thought of that!

From Bakerella

Osh. my. Gosh. I so wish I had thought of this. They're cake pops! Simply too cute. I'm definitely gonna try and make these soon. and the photo (and all the photos on the website look so damn good. Makes me wish I hadnt lost my camera all over again....)

There are so many recipes and experiments I want to try. I cant wait until college is over! All these ideas running through my mind, I just want to start baking now!

Baking List:

• Cup Pies: this idea from my fave tv show Pushing Daises.
• Red Velvet Cupcake
• A successful Black Bottom Cupcake (i've failed twice so far)
• a variety of breads
• and more I just cant unjungle in my brain...
  

hmm I just came across this interesting dessert...Chocolate Bacon Ice Cream. I would have never imagined. That reminds me, I still need to make ice cream to sell at the Vegetarian restaurant the temple just opened. I promised them. Though I need an ice cream machine...money money money....

I'm Happy*

*It might be because of the gorgeous sunny weather today or listening to Michael Buble that's making me all giddy inside. But I dont care, I like it.

I'm happy.

Only 3 more weeks of college left and I'm free to do what I love most and that's COOK. No more wasting my time in lectures where I sleep more than I learn. No more damn assignments that stress everyone out so they dont come out and play with me. I dont care anymore! I dont want to be cooped inside a building 20+ hours a week. I want to be outside, enjoying the sunshine on my days off and not be stuck inside trying to start my assignment. I want to find a new job where I can bake and have fun. I dont need to worry, I just need a little bit of confidence, I dont need someone telling me what I can and cannot do. Let me try, let me fail, let me succeed.

Everyone is so stressed out right now, everyone is a lil disappointed in me, I dont do it on purpose, I just dont understand the point. But I am happy, why not let me be? Everyone just needs to relax a little bit, grades dont matter in this profession-it's your will and passion to succeed that do.

I'm going to enjoy these last few weeks. I will finish my assignments and I will do fine. I will find a new job, I will enjoy it. Then when college is all over, I will help change my brother's life and I will spend more time with my baby sister (who is growing up so damn fast, I cant believe she is in high school already). I will catch up with old friends. I will just roll with what comes at me.

There is so more much more to life, and life isnt forever. I will live today.

I am so Excited. I am so Loved. I am so Happy.