No one knows...
I may laugh and joke all the time, but inside my soul is slowly dying each day.
Its hard... I dont know how much more I can take. Everyday I hope that today will be different, its not. Every week I hope that I finally get a day to just relax. I don't.
I don't want this life anymore...I want to be selfish, I want to not work and just play all day everyday. But that's not my life, I have responsibilities... I have to help support my family, set a good example. Do what I must, and that means I cant be selfish. No one understands. Its not that simple. I can't just quit. Its not a choice I have.
My 21st. What a joke. I had to work. That weekend I wanted a make up birthday, just a 'me' day, yeah...that didnt happen. I spent the whole day running errands. Its depressing. Truly. I havnt wanted to cry so much in my life. I don't, I can't.
Someone please take me away... Make me forget... Please...
1 comment:
cheer up sweetheart :) you're just going through a depressing period of being young where things involving your career and everything else isn't working out like you want to. and that includes me!!! you are a lucky person to have much experience of going out into the world and having work experience. don't think of the negativity voices in your head. i wish u all the best nhi! :) x o
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