I am lost. I want to start over. I want a new identity. I want to go far away to a place where no one knows me. I am lost & confused...

I've decided, I'm going to makeover myself. I'm going to change. My look. My life. My thoughts. I need change. This will probably not happen over night, but damn it! I will do it.

I havnt been feeing like myself lately. I havnt been as joyful and as carefree as I used to be. I have a lot of doubt in my mind about everything I'm doing. I'm not thinking clearly. and I'm getting really easily iratated with EVERYTHING and everyone lately....and what's worse is I take it out on them (being rude, selfish and sarcastic), I'm such a jerk.(I'm sorry....). I want to keep my mouth shut, I want to keep to myself, let the world go by, but I cant..why?! What the heck is the matter with me? (stop bringing everyone down with you!)

I need time to think...I need to sort out my life.